New Blog!

I figured getting a Tumblr blog would be much easier on me than only having to have to wrong extensive paragraphs and such on Blogger. So check out my random ramblings and such over here!

Out of Sight...

"Out of sight, out of mind" is how my brain works. I also tend to respond more to lively color and large print. Why am I caring to share this in a blog? Because I'm trying to better my summer by actually doing things I said I would do. And I'm going to achieve this through mood boards. I'm finally putting the stupid things my aunt gives me for holidays to use (thank goodness). I'm really trying to get myself out of my young rut. I'm constantly in the routine of saying I'm going to get things done and just doing a whole bunch of nothing for the few months I have off, then getting to school and doing a whole bunch of nothing until it's finals time when I have a time crunch, and doing this cycle over and over again. I feel like once I get into the real world of constant movement, I won't be able to keep up. Hell, I'm not able to keep up with my peers now. I have a lot of catching up, and maturing, to do.

ABC's of JST

A. Age - A fresh 21
B. Bed Size - Twin -_- yes, I am an adult still sleeping in a twin-sized bed. On the bright side, it's a humbling experience... I guess
C. Chore You Hate - Vacuuming
D. Day - Friday. I love the anticipation of waking up without an alarm clock to another day that's full of non-school!!
E. Essential to Start Your Day - Breakfast food. I LOVE breakfast, and it's imperative that it be the first meal I have of the day
F. Favorite Color - Purple and Baby Blue, although I tend to like purple more
G. Gold or Silver - Silver
H. Height - 5'7"
I. Instruments - I used to play the clarinet
J. Job Title - Student!
K. Kids - They're alright lol. No, I do hope to have my own kids (I would love a girl), but I also prefer to adopt.
L. Live - Chicago
M. Mom's Name - Janis
N. Nicknames - JT, Jassy, Jas, Twin, Jazzy Phae (which I absolutely hate), Jasmyn Simone (only used by my grandmother)
O. Overnight Hospital Stays: Thank God I've had none
P. Pet Peeve - Wow, so many. I think my top three are close-minded people, rude/inconsiderate people, and hypocrites
Q. Quote From a Movie - "Like awesome, oh wow, like totally freak me out I mean right on *clap clap* The Toros sure are number one." "I transferred from Los Angeles, your school has no gymnastics team, this is a last resort *clap*" Bring It On
R. Right or Left-handed - Right-handed
S. Siblings - None, but I make up for that with a bunch of friends that are like sisters :)
T. Time You Wake Up - Between 11AM and 2PM. Depends on what time I go to sleep
U. Underwear - I'm not a sexy person, so mostly bikini briefs or boyshorts if I'm feeling daring
V. Vegetables You Dislike - Mushrooms
W. What Makes You Run Late - Trusting myself to lay in bed for "5 more minutes" and triple-checking everything since I usually don't prepare my things the night before
X. X-Rays You've Had - My arm, my knee, and my chest
Y. Yummy Food You Make - I get the most compliments on my mac and cheese, but I've been told my quesadillas and burritos are delicious too
Z. Zoo - Wow... haven't been to one of those in years! The last one was probably Lincoln Park Zoo if I had to guess

Golden Year Reflections

As my golden year comes to a close I reflect:

• I don't have patience, but it is imperative that I learn this virtue and soon.
• Accountability and responsibility. Enough said.
• I'm a late bloomer, and my time and place for anything and everything will come right on time, not a minute early or a minute later.
• The grass isn't always greener on the other side. Most of the times it's waaaay more messed up than you think your side is.
• In my mother's broken text slang: "U are unique maybe the people r not as real as they appear to be. Just continue to be all that u r. It is a question of being not fitting in."
• Comparison will be the death of me. Again, my time and place for anything and everything will come right on time.
• I can't survive alone. It's physically and mentally impossible.
• I may not be as close as others when it comes to family. but they're there with their full support nonetheless.
• Love takes many different forms and is expressed in many different ways. Acknowledge all forms.
• It's okay to say no and mean it. It's definitely better than saying yes and regretting it.
  
• If they don't care about you, don't waste time caring about them. Some people aren't worth proving yourself to.
• Learn from EVERY lesson and apply accordingly.

This last week has been a bit rocky for me just because things started to crumble with the friendly relationships I had with people over here and my insecurities. I realize that I rely on people too much when I'm in unfamiliar places, allowing me to become more vulnerable when realizing people aren't what they seem. My trust valve is always open, and I believe that I can close it a substantial amount without compromising who I am. It's not about being cold-hearted or distrusting, but strengthening my confidence in who to trust and allowing the right people in (trying to filter out those seasonal people). I know 21 holds a bigger impact and life change than 20 (I'm talking other than legally being able to drink), and hopefully I can look back on this post to see how much I've matured. I've been stagnant in my growth as of late, so it's time to turn all attention back to me! And my beautiful baby girl, of course. :)